But I’m wide awake now. All day today I was exhausted, just wanted to nap .. but now I’m awake. It sucks, really.
Today I designed a new theme for this blog .. lookout for it around May 1st.
Then I decided to go through my old photos and see if I have any good ones to share .. and I realized 2 things .. I pretty much stopped getting infront of the camera around 2005 and I used to be alot thinner. So now I’m trying to figure out how to get back to that smaller size. My gym membership is over next month, I should really cancel it because there are cheaper gyms around here now, plus if I can’t make myself workout at the house, there’s no way I’m going to faithfully make it to the gym. I need to start walking or running daily .. preferably with the dogs. And eating correctly .. because eventhough my nutragrain waffle with “lite” syrup for breakfast wasn’t too bad .. the double helping of fried rice for lunch was. I’m having a real issue / fear of eating turkey sandwiches or salad for lunch for the rest of my life to be healthy :\ But its seriously time to make a change since I have no energy and no money for new clothes (I actually dont fit into half my wardrobe).
I also need to get my hair done. When my highlights fade or grow out .. I start pulling my hair back .. when I pull my hair back, it goes flat on top .. which looks so ugly. I need to cut it short again .. short and cute.
Blah .. just a late night rant .. its really time to get some sleep. Hope everybody has a good day tomorrow!!
I know what you mean. I hate that in-a-rut feeling. It’s so hard to break out of it! I keep telling Nik that her and Jason need to get married again because apparently that is the only thing that can really get me motivated to workout and lose weight!
Yeah, I can’t wait to be thin again too. I’m tired of seeing my fat face in pictures and hating the way my arms look in just about every shirt I own. It’s too hot for long sleeves, damnit! Its so hard to get into a good groove and stick with it, but its worth a try because the alternative, staying fat and unhappy, just isn’t worth it.
If eating turkey sandwiches and salads for lunch doesn’t appeal to you.. don’t do it. Whatever you end up doing has to be something you can stick with. I definitely recommend eating the healthiest foods that you actually really enjoy and just cutting back on the side items and sweets.
Good luck! Can’t wait to see your new cute short hair cut!